This week..

I think this week has taken more out of me than I even thought I had to give. Sometimes, things just hit you when you least expect it.
My sweet Grandma is clinging to life in a nursing home. I want her to be out of pain and to be "in a better place," but at the same time I desperately want her here with me. I'm so selfish! I love her so much, and it will be so hard when she goes.
I just want to throw questions out to the universe - why does Heavenly Father allow people to remain on the earth when they are basically in a vegetative state? What is her purpose here? Is there something she needs to learn? Is there something her family needs to learn? I just don't understand...
I never thought I'd lose both of my remaining grandparents in the same year. Ugh. I can at least take comfort in the fact that she got to meet my cute baby. And I know I will see her again.
I love you Grandma!